Your Soul Has ALWAYS Got You…

I thought I would cry and CRY the day my mentorship ended with my first business coach back in 2010.

It was a HUGE stretch, hiring her in the first place.

I put a month on my credit card, closed my eyes, clenched my fists, white-knuckle tight, then prayed to God I’d make my bills that month.

… maybe even more than that (as her advertising hinted I probably would).

✨✨✨ Then something magical happened … really, there is no better word for the feeling of it, although there is a ton of scientific evidence and language available to use here, too.

✅ so….yup, I made the money back and more, within that first month.

….that felt amazing—in a strange way, because it felt almost normal, like “ya of course I knew that would happen” (my soul knew 💯)

—but even though it felt so normal, like it had already happened on some other dimension or something, by the time I actually experienced it, that wasn’t the real magic —the magic happened on the day *after* my last day with her.

(my actual last day with her, not gonna lie, felt like back when I was three years old and my dad was leaving for work … and I would grab onto his pant legs tryna stop him …. noooo don’t leave me!! LOL)

That day after, though, 😢 tears as I type this 😢 that day after…it rained and rained and rained and rained and rained outside.

Now, I live in British Columbia, not far from Vancouver, rain is never a surprise here, but global warming had kicked in and we’d been on a two month stretch of hot, dry days.

🌲🌲🌲🌲Forest fires were out of control, it was scorching hot—so this was the first day it rained in a what felt like forever. 🌧 🌧 🌧

… STILL not exactly the magic tho …

It was right after my super deep sleep that night, when I opened my eyes that next morning, and, before doing anything else,

👠 even putting shoes on 👠

I walked outside, as if I were a robot, being moved by someone or something else.

I walked straight into the forest outside my front door, opened my mouth, and stood there, for what must have been an hour, letting rain drip all over my face, just feeling LIFE, in a way I hadn’t felt it before.

—-I just stood there, slowly registering what had just happened:

✨❤️✨❤️ when my connection with her ended, and that little girl stirred inside me (“don’t let go”) …my soul stepped in quick, like right after, to catch me. To remind me, that I’m not alone, EVER.

You see, the whole time i was coaching with her, she kept asking me:

“What is the greatest feeling you’ve ever had in your entire life?”

“Standing in the forest, when it’s raining,” I said, with no delay or hesitation.

I’d go up, down, all around with my emotion (I was grieving my grandmother’s death at the time),

and she’d just keep asking me, over and over and over, again and again, to tune me into feeling better.

To show me how energy, how life, how SPIRIT really worked in our lives…when we let it.

And so it was. On that last day, I finally got it. My body walked me out the door, to show me, as if it was playing relay tag with my (now former) mentor….and…my soul.

I am not alone.

Never, ever, Ever.

I get to feel better, now, now, now and now.

—so you expect me to believe, that I’m always taken care of? Mentor or not? (daddy or not)???

—you expect me to believe it’s that simple?

YES, I’d learn, in those months that followed, when I met life alone for a bit. It really is that simple.

Soul just needs to sneak in there, first thing in the morning, before our brains have even fully woken up.

Before our monkey minds, which love overcomplicating, overthinking, overcritiquing things, wake up.

The new way has to sneak in there, give you a real live experience of what’s possible, while that part of your brain is still asleep.

Because when I was moved outside, I remembered. I tuned in. It rained for days after too, as if to say, “You’ll never forget now.”

My little girl yearnings to cling to others then turned into gratitude.

I felt magic instead of “there’s something wrong.”

I went into my business that day ✨certain✨ that my business would work, instead of wondering and doubting. I knew now, it couldn’t not work.

With THIS magic in me?

With THIS level of alignment, synchronicity, always available to me?

It. Can’t. Not.

It’s available to you, too.

You get to know YOU ARE ALWAYS HELD, no matter what —because our souls are our greatest mentors.

Always have been, always will be…which means all this magic lives inside YOU ✨


If I did it, YOU CAN TOO …

All I wanted was to feel strong, solid and JOYFUL in my life,

👩💗👨 with people 👩 💗👨

💵 + especially with money 💵

after living *so long* with the feeling that there was never enough of it.

🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️I hadn’t yet tuned into the truth of it, that it’s just energy!!!

That we attach whatever meaning we attach to it —power, freedom, security, choice—but on its own, it’s literally nothing. Paper, from trees 🌲 🌲 🌲 and I love trees!!!!

I needed to FEEL the energy of that, connect money to something good and joyous in life, after all those years living with it feeling not-so-good.

I started right there!!

As I stuck with it, held that energetic frequency solid and strong, I saw results, massive results.

That’s when people started asking me to help them, to coach them to heal their relationship with money, which also extended into their relationships with other people, with themselves, with their own bodies, even food!! (boy does Italian me ever get that one, LOL).

So of course I did, and my business was born. It was September 2009.

👋 I left my high-paying government position then and there, then had to find nanny jobs to pay my bills as I learned about business, how to keep dancing with money in joyous ways, to keep money flowing in like my pay checks at work did—over the years in way greater amounts than those, too.

💗 🙂💗 I took in private 1:1 clients and taught courses I called “The. Energy of Money” online then to groups of people in person, in Vancouver, sitting on the floor of yoga studios, lifting the money frequency in all the beautiful people who joined my workshops. The smiles, the transformation, the hugs all lifted my heart so immensely 💗💗💗

This learning, growing, expanding more fully into JOY never stopped for me. It was always the way, the underlying work—and its the same for you, too. Whatever your path looks like, whether it’s an online business or having your books on Amazon bring you passive income while you sleep.

👀 👀 👀 Seeing what’s standing between you and money, which is an energy that also stands in between you and other people, and you and YOU—your work, your success, your joy, the honouring, the fulfillment of your deepest desires and purpose in life.

Learning about you, about JOY, about freedom and love, and allowing —in practice— *more* of all of it into your life, one day, one step at a time.

✨✨✨ Everything is energy, when we remember that, when we keep it at the forefront of our minds, we step into what’s possible…..✨✨✨

—if I could go from stuck to finished, with my book about one of the hardest experiences of my life,

with my business that just keeps thriving and thriving through everything, global pandemic included,

healing massive trauma I never ever EVER thought I’d get over and onto the other side of,

✨✨✨ then you can too ✨✨✨

Don’t ever forget that 😉


When You Want to Share Your Life Story So Bad BUT….

I wanted to share my personal life story with the world *so bad* but couldn’t understand whyI just didn’t JUST DO IT🤷🏻‍♀️😕🤷🏻‍♀️

My desire to share was literally fire hot 🔥 🔥 🔥

I wanted it more than anything….

I KNEW I was meant for it …

🤷🏻‍♀️ I just couldn’t

🤷🏻‍♀️ or I just wouldn’t

🤷🏻‍♀️ or who really knew why I didn’t ?!?!

Then when living like an imposter, by not sharing my story according to what my soul was telling me was a major part of my life’s blueprint,

when that life got to be SO MUCH strife and split energy, that feeling of living like two different people,

I started numbing out my body with:

🥘 food

💔 dramatic relationships that were so painful and noisy, I never had a chance to live quiet enough to hear that soul truth ever again (=that part of me not wanting to hear it was winning!!), and

💊 pharmaceuticals for whatever would supposedly help what my doctor happen to label my “problem” as.

None of it helped, not in the long game, because the only reason I was doing ANY of it was: I had turned away from my soul.

I knew, after all, I’d heard it LOUD AND CLEAR that I was meant to be a woman who gave others hope by sharing my story of overcoming, there was no question.

I was just too scared to do it. I didn’t know how. I was terrified of what others would think of me. I was afraid of the shame I would be forced to live in if I did share with the world that I had weighed 300 pounds back in 2008, after working on Canada’s second largest murder case in my career.

✅ YESS it came in as a flash of knowing, so quick I could have easily missed it—but I didn’t.

I heard, loud and clear, that I was meant to share my entire journey: how I let my life become so unmanageable that I isolated myself and let my work be the only thing that mattered, shutting my body’s needs up along the way…

I heard it loud and clear while I was going through it “take care of yourself, quit this job it’s too much” 😩

Then, after I went through and came out still healthy on the other side, the message became “share this, share this now, people need to know that they can get through hardship and trauma too, through your story!!!”

but I just turned away….I told my body to shut up, again. This time, instead of “Here have a Twinkie” it was “here watch Netflix until you’re a zombie”

I just needed to do *anything but* hear the calling on my life once again, because deep down, I didn’t want to listen. I was way too afraid of it all ….

…at the same time, STILL KNOWING DIAMOND CLEAR, that it was meant to be the way for me in this lifetime. It was meant to be, my way.

🙄 🙄 🙄 And just like staying in a romantic relationship for way too long past the time it didn’t feel right, I knew this feeling wasn’t going to go away.

I had to either choose to allow myself to do what I was born to do, OR live with imposter discomfort.

I would never lie about how scary this process was, it IS scary…but the truth is, when you really step in, commit all the way and show you mean it with your actions (vs just words or rah rah talk about what you’re planning on doing someday) that fear only last for a minute….then you’re on the other side.

🏔💦 It’s EXACTLY jumping off a cliff. You stand on the edge in total terror, for however long you choose to stand there, then when you actually jump, and you’re in the beautiful aquamarine lagoon at the bottom, with the sun on your body, feeling refresh, you wonder why you didn’t jump faster, why you waited so long …

Those whispers and nudges won’t go away, Love….quiet as they are, they really are like lightening ⛈

💥💥💥The rain and thunder are loud all around it in your life storms, sure, but this message from your soul telling you you’re meant to share, this lightening, is quiet as nothing —and it will slice your life open in the middle of trying to live that numbed out imposter life,

This is a good thing! It’s soul lightening with power enough to kill everything dead that no longer serves your life…

….those things that hurt you and hurt me by having too much momentum in the direction of not listening and living according to, what we already know, because soul told us.

So here’s what I’ve learned being on the other side:

✅ the only reason we don’t listen is because of fear, we haven’t yet tuned into the LOVE of it, the very loving, very powerful reason we are meant to share our stories = to love others with it ❤️

✅always always ALWAYS listen to those lightening clear soul moments, and I mean *obey* them, without question

✅the longer you wait to obey, the more strife you’ll live in

And yesss….teetering in spiritual bypass land, as you do, when you’re making our way into living in full alignment with your soul’s direction,

you’ll find that you DO wait, you wait a long time sometimes, in the strife,

*not* choosing the easiest, fastest, MOST FUN path (which soul always takes us to if we only just withstand that couple seconds of fear before we jump),

instead choosing to learn things along the way while you wait, knowing truly that everything really is OK as you wait—then…

That’s when you can ask yourself, right now, if you find yourself in any form of waiting, you can ask yourself the only question left to ask:

Am I ok with living with ok?


PS…If you’re ready to explore how to live in MORE THAN OK my writing group starts tomorrow! I’m showing you exactly how to create the *steady* habit of tuning into and honouring and obeying soul, every single day, with short half hour lives, in which you’ll actually practice my powerful journalling techniques with me and the others who’ve already joined. *THIS GROUP IS FOR BOTH MEN AND WOMEN* Just click here for more detail and to save your spot now ✍️💓

There’s NOTHING more powerful than a woman who’s “been through it”

Every time I hear another powerful woman who survived against all odds tell her story, I become more authentic in my work with women.

Before I read another such story, I think:

“OK, I mean, that last one was incredible—surely after twenty years of getting their stories down on paper for them, I’ve heard it all.”

…. then, I keep feeling so grateful as I keep going about my work…

…UNTIL, the next one comes in.

💨💨💨 then I’m blown away again. Way more than before!! A new layer of ego and protective defence blown clear off me, leaving me more humble, more ready, stronger than ever myself, as I keep doing my work with my women.

AND THEN, the next one rolls in, then the one after that!!!!

👑💗📚 👑💗📚I claimed my role as Life Story Doula two decades ago, so they keep rolling in.

—-BUT, I’m still left wondering how do I describe for you, what it’s like receiving these women, these stories, these sacred lives???

“Inspiring” is too light a word for these stories—

“Blessed” is too light to describe how I feel receiving, coaching, ghostwriting for these women.

No word in the English language can capture the soul dance we have, the bond between us, what it feels like delivering these sacred life stories out into the world,

where they will work 💫 so much magic 💫 long after either of us have stopped walking this earth.

All I CAN say is that my soul needs to know they are out there because I feel them, even before I know anything about their lives.

✅ My soul needs to know, that they’re out there, living brave, like I am, too. Enjoying thriving in all they’ve created for their lives, yet appreciating the simple things more than most people could ever understand or know.

✅I need to know that there are others out there, smiling with eyes deep as mine, eyes that were scraped out, then filled back up again with the most divine, multi-dimensional light…eyes that know, eyes that have seen so much, moved through so much, as mine have, now they just KNOW.

Most would say they’ve seen TOO MUCH, they KNOW too much—but these are my warrior sisters. My kindred life story sisters, and our mission is untouchable, which is never too much.

I exist for them.
They exist for me.
💗💗We exist for each other 💗💗

That’s never too much.

We were cut from cloth that does whatever it takes, you see, to hold the flame, to pass it forward.

😊💃🏽💥 Proud AF for all we’ve overcome, for all we’ve moved through, and gotten on the other side of.

Knowing what taking the time to tell our stories will do for:

👑 women at the beginning of their life journeys
👑 middle-aged women who are just about to brave the telling of their own life stories, and
👑 women like me, who’ve published their stories, told them many times over online, but need to hear MORE of the bravest stories

….to keep us leading
….to keep us moving forward
….to keep bonds between women radiant, alive, strong.

We’re in this together, my Warrior Goddess Sisters!

Calling Out This BS for my Life Story Superstars …

If you know you’re going to get your life story down into a book, 

everything —and I do mean EVERYTHING—

*everything* you’re thinking about that has you “waiting” is total and utter complete B.S.

Your soul has spoken. Period.

You know you’ve been called. You know this is meant for you. It’s been nudging you for years, you’ve been called FOR YEARS, you just weren’t obeying the call of your soul … which is part of being human, right?

As “normal” or “usual” as this is though, it’s not natural, because the truth is:

There really is no “someday!”

That opportunity *won’t* always be there, to get it done.

Besides, now is the only time your soul knows.

It knows what it knows, and we either kick all the B.S thoughts and fears and procrastination habits aside (again, totally human!), to obey it, or, we turn away, and:

Let more years pass.

Let your book’s life force (aka ITS soul) die down some more, with every passing year, until you find yourself barely remembering WHY you wanted to write it in the first place.

Or your WHY, the reason you wanted to write this book in the first place, becomes so clouded over, that you get lost in the fog, with your book holding your life story, and all it is meant to do for the world, lost in the fog right there with you.

That fog of resistance.

That fog of distraction.

It’s all fear.

I know, I know, it doesn’t FEEL that way, it just feels like a logical decision, that you’re just humming and hawing as you go about life—but underneath is fear, and there’s only one remedy: courage.

Courage to trust yourself. To honour that calling inside of you. To step up in a way you’ve never stepped up before, and see your potential in a way that ONLY this book will show you.

Don’t let the fear win, fellow Superstar!

There’s something MORE REAL beneath all this delaying, analyzing, thinking about it, the procrastination!

Use *this* skill instead: obeying your gut instinct. Directing your logical brain to OBEY your soul.

Not tomorrow.

Not next week or next year.


You don’t need time to practice!

Thinking about it won’t do anything, except create MORE space between you and this fire you have to get this book done,


stick you deeper in the mire that keeps you from getting it done.  

The skill is to hear your soul’s guidance

*check* you’ve already done that!

Now obey it. 

Move forward now, because you were meant to long ago, the first time you knew!

Listening, obeying, in this way, will serve you for a lifetime.

All else is arguing for something I will never stand for: the waiting, the procrastinating, the delaying, the living of a life that yes, is ok, maybe even great … but not a 100% complete and full NOD to what your soul has directed you to do.

Today, not tomorrow, because I know you *know* or you wouldn’t even want to write the damn thing, if it wasn’t the next path you’re meant to walk.

I know you know, that on the other side, you’ll feel:

-more courageous

-more integrated as a human being

-plus THAT OTHER THING that only your soul knows that is on the other side of getting this book done,

—>which you will NEVER find out either, if you don’t step in, then commit to getting it done.

Now! Your time is now. It’s the only time we have. All else is illusion = it’s not real.

Your soul only knows ONE time, that time is now. 

That’s it!

That’s your direction.

..and when you turn away???

Things come up.

Life comes up.

Monkey mind rushes in to cloud you up again.

=more years go by.

=more nudging happens that you don’t listen to (from deep inside of you)

=more misalignments—even the slight little niggly ones, take our energy, and, over time, suck us dry.

You’re in or you’re out, Sister!

You’re either doing it now, or you’re not doing it. It’s just the way it is.

It’s 100% human ego (we’ve all been there) to think that you know right now, ALL that awaits you on the other side of having that book done.

I could spend hours on live-streams or writing posts about it (and I have lol):

-the deep sense of integration within

-the “hmph! If I had only known, all along, that all I had to do was finish the book, so I could feel this freedom, this nourishment, this TRUST in myself like never before”

-the “ohhhh so these are the doors that were always meant to open on the other side!” (followed by why didn’t I listen earlier, again?)

There’s a satisfaction that comes from listening to your soul, that ONLY comes from listening to your soul.


Listening to soul is the way.


THIS is how important sharing your life story is …

I know it FEELS LIKE your life story doesn’t matter at times.

That nobody really cares what you’ve lived through or been through….

…but this couldn’t be further from the truth.

****YES****we want to present ourselves in clear, powerful ways, so that people can hear us,

and really take in the gift we have to offer, through the sharing of our life story.

and THE LAST THING we want to do is sound like we’re fishing for empathy or showing up in needy energy.

—but none of that matters when deciding whether to rise above this BS that’s going on in our heads, telling us our story doesn’t matter, that nobody will care. We must rise above that if we’re ever going to get the book done!!

✅ Your story DOES MATTER ✅

In my twenties I was so depressed, and confused about why I felt that way after being generally healthy and happy most of my life —then I happened across a book in which the author shared how depressed she was in the past, and how she got on the other side of that depression, to create the life she really wanted to live!!

💗this validated me at a time I felt SO ALONE and scared about what would happen in my future

💗this gave me HOPE that I could get over it, too

💥💥💥💥THAT is how important getting your life story down on paper is 💥💥💥💥

Never forget that.


🔥 Your Pilot Light Never Goes Out 🔥

🔥 Your Pilot Light Never Goes Out 🔥

Nobody taught me the thing that got me to allow myself to live *exactly* as I want to be living right now…

🔥 My pilot light taught me that🔥

I have one, you have one. It’s that spark of Creative Intelligence living inside each and every one of us, that literally never smooshes out.

✨ no matter how much you turn away from it

✨ no matter how much you forget about it

✨ no matter how much you try to numb it away, or … maybe live unaware that it’s even there.

It’s still ON.


It never stops.

So for me this mass pilot light wisdom that I couldn’t un-know came in to my heart via three words: standard of care.

I looked at the light, looked at the light, kept looking … until I KNEW that the standard I had been using to care for myself, needed an upgrade.

🙄 *not* because I needed to start getting selfish and caring about only me and forgetting everybody else.


I couldn’t stop caring if I tried.

It was something deeper this time….that had to do with THE CALLING ON MY LIFE.


That’s what I needed to care for more.

🤯 🤯 🤯 So when I took this wisdom from my pilot light, which I had been applying to everyone else in my life,

when I took that standard of care and applied it to the sacred gift I was born to serve the planet with

✅✅✅ Everything shifted ✅✅✅

Suddenly it was not just “okay” to live and do my life’s work in the most beautiful, hugest mountainous forest landscape I could find. One I could call my own, live in, enjoy every day in….

It was mandatory.



I’m a ghostwriter and finish-your-book coach so guess how I show up for the book babies I write and birth into the world with my incredible clients, when I’m living exactly where I was meant to live all along (but never quite felt good enough for until my pilot light woke me up)?

🌲🌲 vibrant

🌲🌲wildly tuned into the “river beneath the river” every good book must pulse with

🌲🌲so deeply attuned to and in trust with the energy that created all of us, I could move mountains with it


You get to have the desire that’s been secretly whispering to your heart your whole life, too.

✨✨✨✨they’re meant for you.✨✨✨

Creative Intelligence planted them inside of you, to do your best work

Your only role is to remove all the obstacles THAT WE HUMANS place in front of ourselves —-or rather, between ourselves and that pilot light soul wisdom living inside of us—obstacles that prevent us from being able to live out and actually receive, what was always our birthright.

✅ Yes it’s a journey

✅ Yes it takes at least *some* of that 3-dimensional time.

But it doesn’t take as long as you think

🤔 🤔 🤔 And NOT starting today is the *only* thing guaranteed to keep delaying, blocking and keeping you separate from the life you were born for.


PS. If part of your pilot light mission is to get your life story down on paper so it can heal the world, I have two spaces open for private 1:1 mentoring clients. Send me a message or comment below and we’ll chat about how I can support you through your process, dancing with pilot light energy the whole time of course 🔥🔥🔥 Reach out to me here:




The Butt-Kicking You Need to Finish Your Book

Remember being a kid and your parents giving you crap for something you knew deep down they were right about?

Sorry not sorry, that’s a part of book coaching with me.

I step in to kick the a@@ of those parts of you that have been stopping you from finishing your book.

❤️ all done with love, of course ❤️

…but kicking those parts of you into book-finishing alignment, indeed …

EVERYONE who has a life story to share who is not getting it down on paper needs this,

because when your brain senses you’re getting closer to finishing the book that will

📚 infuse soul-powered confidence into your life like nothing else can, just by you going through the process of actually finishing it

📚 being able to share your life experiences in an empowered way with your children, family, close friends and romantic partners, past, present and future, so they get you and y’all become closer than ever

📚 generate passive income from having your book on Amazon, that is: money flowing into your bank account while you sleep

So your very human brain 🧠 is sensing all this change coming

🛑 and it needs you to STOP writing 🛑

(your brain is hard-wired to hesitate in the face of change because it’s unknown)

🐇 🐇 🐇 so it flicks you down a rabbit hole of adding more wayward, unedited text to a ready-to-go piece….

text that would add more more more time to the wrong side of your completion date.

💥 BOOM 💥

That’s when I step in (with so much ❤️) to kick its a@@ by telling you:

No! #stopit ✋ We’re doing it this way…

✅ We’re sticking to the brilliant genius plan that we felt into, then committed to, the very first time we talked

✅ It’s a genius book plan exactly as it was meant to be!

We don’t need the other stuff, we’re not letting it distract us!

That’s how your book gets done 📚

🤦🏻‍♀️ millions of books are killed yearly following the brain’s rabbit holes.

Moral of story?

With all it’s good intentions of protecting you,

your brain mostly just gets in the way

of what your soul needs to convey in your book.

✅ And yes, hire a book coach

Send me a message to talk about this.


Just Listen to Your Soul

Just Listen To Your Soul

Listening to your soul is the SAFEST way to live, even though it feels the scariest.

Safe because when you obey, its direction, you’re never led astray.

You’re led to the right time, right place, right space…for everything.

You’re led into an all-knowing certainty, that you won’t find, anywhere else.

What’s scary is that FREE FALL feeling of actually obeying it, going against all humanoid advice around you, and listening to it …

***it feels like you’re listening BLINDLY or something, but you’re not. It’s your soul!!!

Just because you can’t “see” it with your human vision, doesn’t mean it isn’t the wisest, most powerful, sharpest *all-seeing* mechanism available to you!

It’s when you DON’T LISTEN that you get into all kinds of mischief.

Things take longer, they’re harder, less fun.

Moral of story?

No matter which way you shake your stick at it, we gotta go through “scary” no matter what.

One of them leads you where you want to go, and the other leads you where you don’t want to go.

So listen.

Choose the kind of scary that leads you somewhere safe and expansive at the same time… somewhere you actually want to be.